Why did today happen? Emotionally I’m talking about. Why did I have such severe, ridiculous, dehabiliting depression? Why did I have to suffer the ENTIRE time, driving back from Baton Rouge, for 11 hours, from 12 p.m. to 10:30. With severe severe, hurt, engulfing of the heart, heart, throbbing, jolting, severe pain, getting lit on fire by anything and everything. Why did I … [Read more...] about Why This Depression?
Surah Yusuf
My 9 a.m. Fajr Prayer
??? ???? ?????? ?????? I fell into the severe lows of my depression yesterday, after having so much progress and motivtion, that the pain associated with success and mommy crept in till it took over. Then I had this severe emotional low, complete loss of motivation. I was barely able to get up to even pray, because of the depression. I had been functioning off of about 3 … [Read more...] about My 9 a.m. Fajr Prayer
Party Pooper
??? ???? ?????? ?????? There was nothing more beloved to me than to leave the party tonight, filled with hurt and pain, and to sit on the bathroom floor and to allow myself to feel my hurt in the depth of my heart. To explore and feel truly what is bothering me, instead of always just forced to ignore it, and focus on whats around me at the expense of myself. When I went … [Read more...] about Party Pooper
Trust YOU Again?!?!
??? ???? ?????? ?????? ??? ???? ????? ?? ????? ??????? ?? ???? ???? ??? ?? ????? ???? ??? ?????? ??? ???? ?? ??? ????? ??? ????? ? ?? ???? ???????? He said, "Will I entrust you with him, just like I entrusted you with his brother from before? Allah is a better protector and the most lovingly compassionate of the compassionate. 12:64 As I have mentioned before, Surah … [Read more...] about Trust YOU Again?!?!
The Pangs of Depression
I woke up, after a slightly more manageable day, although every day I feel these soul stinging and paining depressions, no matter what activity I engage in, and I have felt so awful with these soul stinging in the dead center of my heart, when I try to pray or read quran, that has been there for I don't know how long. Yesterday, I prayed all my prayers, though I still felt the … [Read more...] about The Pangs of Depression
