??? ???? ?????? ?????? Anxiety and Scrupulosity is deficient in one major area. Belief in Rahman. There's a newsflash that I want to send to myself and all of my friends here in the community and other readers. We are worshipping The Most Compassionate. That is who we are enslaving ourselves to. The Most Compassionate. The Most Loving. The Most Forgiving. All those … [Read more...] about Worship Rahman
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“Could Allah Punish Me?”
??? ???? This is the burning question my scrupulosity asks me. This is the source of my agony. "Would Allah ever punish me?" That's the source of all the anxiety, despair, paranoia, and even anger and resentment. "Is it possible that the most compassionate Rabb, the source of pleasure, peace, love, and care, the protecting friend, is it possible that He too may reject me? … [Read more...] about “Could Allah Punish Me?”
Punishment Paranoia
One of the most difficult issues I'm dealing with at the moment is with the doctrine of judgment and punishment as is found in the Quran. It has completely paralyzed me from living a normal life. I have become so inwardly focused that I seem to be unable to socialize or function normally in life. And when I try to remain outwardly focused, and try to do something "normal" … [Read more...] about Punishment Paranoia
Ramadan Challenge Day 10
??? ???? ?????? ?????? Day 10. How do I describe what has transpired the last couple days. How bout with a little: ??? ??? ? ??? ???? ?????? - (We belong to Allah and indeed we will be returning to Him) After a better time 2 days ago, I fell into a deep deep dark pit of agony and emotional sabatoge. For sure, this was the worst time I have been through this Ramadan. Simply … [Read more...] about Ramadan Challenge Day 10
What I was ACTUALLY afraid of
In Islam, there is a balance of hope and fear. hope for paradise, and fear of hellfire. And the classical scholars mentioned that this should be in balance pretty much consistently. Okay, so I took this and shaitan took me to such deep abyss's that I finally now am realizing what the issue is. The super high anxiety and scrupulosity I developed was first and foremost, due … [Read more...] about What I was ACTUALLY afraid of
